this is so much harder than i thought. it's only day 2, yet i feel my mind is about to implode.
people like to say, you never really cherish something until it's not with you.
never know you could mean so much to me in such a short time. yet i'm at a loss for words when it comes to telling you. feelings were never made to be simply expressed.
i know you're out there enjoying yourself, you wouldn't think of me. i don't blame you, if i were having fun i guess i'd subconsciously do the same.
only thing now is, nothing can really take my mind off. i watch live concerts, movies. somehow a song or a scene or line spoken in every show would remind me of you. then i'd think of the times we had.
sometimes, reminiscing is not very desirable. i might have bypassed that stage already, where my thoughts would comfort me.
when you come back next week, things will be a little different. i'll make sure that what you and i missed out on are gonna be paid back in full. i adore you too much to compromise even a little bit.
seems like my ipod is working against me for now...whatever song i play creates this image of you in my head no matter what. club songs about the wonderful times we had ripping up the dancefloor, alternative to contribute to those lonely hours, as well as the dreams we had lived in reality for the past 2 months.
seems now that sleep is the only healer, and i've been getting way too much. i really want to stop thinking about you but i can't. you really make my day.
i shouldn't be doing this whole countdown thing, time drags to a complete crawl that way. i'm gonna do something a lot more productive, maybe i'll write you a song. maybe i'll fix a letter. or maybe i'll print our photos.
life ain't that easy, and talking to my sisters and friends keeps me sane. i like it to stay that way.
just five more days. five. and i swear, i can't wait to see your smile. i guess it's just the way it melts my heart.
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