4.AM forever

"I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess"
---'Run' by Snow Patrol

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.....i really don't know what more i can say ; i know you're trying to get away from me, to avoid me. i don't know what i have done wrong, if i have offended you in any way. maybe it's just me. maybe i'm just paranoid. i really don't know. i have made many mistakes, but do i really deserve this all? you probably know what i feel by now, and that's probably the main reason why you stay away from me. am i really that unapproachable? am i really that disrespectful? am i not trustworthy? if it's something in you, please don't take it out on yourself. it's always my fault most of the time, and i'll take the blame. i can live with it, hopefully. but whatever it is, this is not what it was supposed to be, what i wanted it to be. i have made another mistake.

maybe, one day, you'll forgive me. maybe then you'll realise that i just want to be with you. i just want to love you like how i love others. you may not see it forever, but what you should know is that i will be behind you every step of the way. i will press on, and hopefully one day you'll see it in me, and we'll be together. until then, i'll have to wait, for this may never happen between us. i love you, _________________.